As I zoned out while sitting with my Family as we Celebrated my Early 25th birthday I couldn’t help but thinking deeply about my life up to this point. Maybe I think to deep these days.
Not for one moment will I say I’ve lived a life more difficult than others, nor will I dare to say I’m any more special than the next man. But truthfully no one has lived my life, and nobody will understand my troubles, sorrows and heartache I’ve been through and walked out from.
So far in my life I’ve: Failed God more times than I could count, been forgiven more times than I deserve. I’ve made my parents cry, and also brought them much joy. (I pray) I’ve learned how to take a complement, and how to not get big headed. I’ve learned that worrying is pointless, yet it sometimes feels out of my control. I know now that love at first site is a cruel joke, and that Love is a life lived out by actions and a never ending effort towards the betterment of someone else. I’ve loved a woman with all my heart, and I’ve watched her walk away and come back into my arms, and then walk away again. I know now to hold on to those you love, even after they let you go. I’ve learned to keep a promise. I’ve learned to abandon foolishness. I’ve learned that my brother, although younger than me is someone I will always come to when life gets difficult. I’ve learned my sister is a Prize. I understand now that it’s okay to smile in pictures, and it’s okay to be funny when you feel like. I’ve learned I need to be alone to truly speak with God. I’ve learned that my life is not my own, and it’s better to invest in others. I’ve learned that sleeping in till noon is a waste of Life. I’ve learned my mother Melissa is a Queen. I’ve learned my Father is a man after Gods heart. I’ve learned I love my cousins like my brothers and sisters.
I’ve learned that the next morning isn’t promised, and all I truly have is NOW, at this moment.
I couldn’t ask for a better time to be born. July 27th 1989 was when God allowed me to be brought into this earth. I’m not where I want to be, but I’m not as far off as I sometimes think I am. Never give up, never stop moving forward, and if you fall down get up ! And if you fall again, get up again and again and again!
I love you all. And remember Jesus Christ is the Way, The Truth and The Life.